Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
I can't stand myself nowadays okay. So damn bitchy, irritating, PMS, insensitive, mean, demanding, and everything that's not my old self to people around me. It's insane, like I can't control myself anymore. I don't even know what I was pissed about sometimes, cuz I was just pissed at something =.= Haiz Ice Ice Ice, you think what? FUNFAIR is it? You not happy can anyhow scold people and make black face? Sorry to those people who kena me these few days, ok weeks.. I think I'm down with some acute mood disorder.
To Mum:
Ma, if you're reading this now. I'm really sorry okay? I know I'm unfilial, for doing this to myself when you worked so hard to bring me up. I know you saw those papers when you were cleaning my table today. I scribbled those letters last year in fits of anger and I didn't know what I was thinking. I didn't mean to write those words, really. Moreover, that was last year. I can't really remember what was bothering me but I was very.. confused and frustrated at the world. You understand, Ma? Be assured that I won't do anything stupid. I know that there are many obstacles in life, and you've always been telling me that we have to get over them and carry on with our lives. Don't worry about me. I will take care of myself for you and Pa. And I'm really sorry about last night, I didn't mean to be rude... In school today, I did think back about those words you said to me at the door this morning. I think I've straightened my thoughts out. I will be a good girl from now onwards ok? Problems won't bring me down. I know that life means so much more, and that we're not born into this world to suffer.
With love, from your daughter.
To Sherlyn, Rachel, Amanda, Xin Ci, and Isabel:
Hey guys. I know that you all got read my blog, lazy to tag only =.= Lol. I know that I've been really out of sorts these few weeks. You all know my problem right? About ahem. I have to admit that I haven't really gotten over him yet. It's my fault, and I've brought this upon myself. I know that shouldn't have vent my anger and frustrations on you guys over my own problems. Haiz, let me tell you why. I bu gan xin, you know? It's been a long time but my feelings have been toyed with and I think I'm going to be scarred all my life. Let's just say that I got myself in too deep ba.. Sherlyn, Rachel and Amanda, sorry that you all have to tolerate my nonsense sometimes, I know I always wet blanket lol. Isabel, sorry for being oversensitive sometimes? I know sometimes you say stuff you mean them as a joke. Xin Ci, I think I owe you the biggest apology of all other friends. Knowing you for 1 year and about 8 months already, I know that you damn sot diao almost all the time lol. And because we always stick together, when I get the mood swings, you always the first to kena. Because you irrtated me the most xD. I could feel that you didn't feel good at all everytime I "attacked" you verbally or physically due to frustration. Here's a big SORRY to you alright? And even though you irritate me the most, you made me laugh the most (: Thank you people for staying by my side despite the sudden change in my attitude. Friends for life? Wahaha.
With love, from your friend.
To other friends who cared:
You know who you are! :D I'm really grateful to you all for everything. Even something as minor as showing concern by asking whether I was alright was enough (: Rina, after reading this post, DON'T START FEELING BAD ALL OVER AGAIN OKAY?! You were being a good friend by telling me about that thing. If not for you I would be like a fool, kept in the dark all along about something so... GRAVE. LOL whatever that word is lah! Twin, thanks for caring all along yah? You and Rina are friends I will never exchange for anything in the world (: Alison, Tinghui, Richny, May Hui, Zhi Ning and most of the others I mentioned up there, thank you for those words of concern on my tagboard (:
With love, from your friend :x
**it!!! It's 5:20! BYE BYE BYE BYE BYE BYE! xD
LASTLY (really this time), GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE FOR TOMORROW'S GEOG PAPER! THEN WE WILL BREAK FREEEEEEEEE.
4:20 PM
Let your heart out.
I wannnY
my loved ones to be happy :D to be your BFF :) a better day more 2g outings :/ Drama SYF Gold
get computer fixed (yes, AGAIN) finish Death Note manga (T.T cannot la) KO One subbed episodes! T.T finish Magister Negi Magi It Started With A Kiss subbed episodes! T.T finish Hana Kimi finish Devil Beside You watch them live again :D good + high capacity mp3/mp4 go back again ): Chantaburi ♥ Sense 365 Days With Golf-Mike Big Ass Begins The Collection Focus volunteer to help out at Mutts and Mittens! own comp/laptop muahahah. learn to cycle/blade properly :DDD